“Everything scares me.”
Dear Kamaria’s Kitchen,
I have been anorexic for about a year and it has destroyed the most important parts of my life. This is a huge step for me and I am really glad that you have been so welcoming and enabled me to have a platform where I can just write about the little issues I have concerning food. Please feel free to publish this letter and including this fact that I am now eating salads with different meats and I had bread for the first time in months. Your support and recipes have been amazing. I still don’t like apples. Everything that isn’t homemade still scares me and I recently had an episode where I ordered a salad and it had dressing all over it. Can you please share a salad dressing, that is common and simple so I can make it? Overtime I will be able to accept it from other restaurants maybe but I think you are right about taking small steps. I heard about the amounts of sugar they put in dressings like Thousand Island and it is really scary. Help!
Dear Beautiful Brave Soul,
I am so proud of you. What may seem like small steps are actually huge movements towards your goals. You are inviting more food groups into your life which will help you grow mentally and physically. You are allowing your body to feel the love it deserves, so well done you. Don’t worry if you don’t like certain foods, you would be surprised at how picky people without eating disorders actually are. I completely understand that you were nervous about the salad and I actually agree that some restaurants and brands are very misleading and can drown salads in dressing. I have made and tested a dressing which is used on a variety of foods and salads and tastes quite nice. It is delicate in flavour and is sugar free. Feel free to adjust the seasonings to your taste. Also please don’t think that sugar is the enemy because little doses of sugar can make a world of difference. For example, tomato sauce from fresh tomatoes can be very acidic but a little sugar can uplift the whole sauce. Nonetheless let me know how you get on with this recipe and when you are ready I have a lovely orange dressing for you when you want to add a little more flavour. I tried the recipe I have provided on a crab salad and it was pretty nice.
Recipe & Method:
- In a medium glass mixing bowl mix together a tbsp of fresh oregano, a tbsp of fresh thyme and 225ml olive oil.
- Do not worry you will have to taste this dressing but don’t be scared by the oil, this is going to be a batch for a variety of lovely salads.
- Add 4 tbsps of balsamic vinegar and whisk together.
- Add a pinch of salt and pepper and whisk.
- Now I want you to do something which may seem really daunting. I want you to taste the dressing. Just a little taste. Tasting food is very important, and this is also a part of dealing with eating disorder therapies. Take you time and allow yourself to analyse the taste. What does the taste remind you of? Is it bitter? Is it weird? What does it need more of? Take control of the dressing. You control the food the food doesn’t control you. You can do it!
Saffy’s Sugar Watch:
- Sugar is not always a bad thing but sometimes unnecessary amounts of sugar are added in products.
- Diet drinks may have less calories but can include a ridiculous amount of sugar.
- Look out for names like sucrose, fructose and high fructose corn syrup which also refer to sugars.
- Honey, coconut palm sugar and molasses are natural healthy alternatives to processed sugars. My Caribbean sweet treats feature natural sugars so if you do want something sweet please search for my natural West Indian recipes.
- Also remember it is better to give your body nourishment and if the only thing available is a cereal far then listen to your instincts. Our bodies are extremely smart and hungry is a sign that you need to eat so love yourself and fall in love with food again.